Friday 6 January 2012

Memories Of Spirit - 07/04/2010

I've often been asked when was i aware of the spirit world and my answers have always been the same, my awareness extends back to early childhood memories.

The earliest of those being when I was no more than 1 years old. I remember standing in my then cot in the middle of the afternoon when my dad comes into the room to which then I see another man behind him. When my dad then picked me up the man at the door started to smile. I don't have much of a memory on what he looked like but I have always felt that I knew him in one way or another.

When my dad turned around the man that I had saw had gone which could only have been within a matter of seconds which takes longer than that to have walked from the door top the top of the stairs and down them. I have shared this memory with my dad and he recalls sensing something at that time but having blocked a lot he couldn't tell what it was. To this very day I can't help but feel that the man standing by the door was my great grand dad on my fathers side.

The next vivid memory I have is when I was around the age of 3. I remember being out in the back garden of our then home with my Brother who is 2 and a half years older, I don't recall what we were doing but I do remember turning round and being drawn to the upstairs back bedroom window. Which incidentally was the room in which my brother and I shared

On looking up at the window I noticed a lady looking back at me, a lady that I had never seen before nor seen since that day. I do remember partials of her, she was in her 30's very slender features on her face. I would have to say light bay brown shortish hair, she was wearing a red jumper from what i could see. I recall her smiling and I wondered who she was. My mum then appeared at the back door which runs of the kitchen so I had asked her who she was. My mum asked what lady so i said the one standing at the window of our room, mum's reply was that there was no-one else in the house with her. I thought nothing more of it.

Another memory isn't with a spirit of a person but that of an animal, well two really. From this memory I recall seeing a white wolf curled up in the corner watching peacefully what was going on, not stirring but could see he was ever alert as his ears would twitch and it's nose would move like that of your pet dog, upon his back was a brown bird, at the age of three i couldn't tell you what type of bird but her feathers looked very soft and smooth. The wolf didn't mind her being there. I've since come to learn that the wolf and the bird which I now know to be a red tailed hawk are in fact two of my totem animals. These two in particular are still with me now and appear to be life long totems.

The next memory I have I can't recall how old I was but can't have been older than 5. It was night time my brother and I were in bed when I awoke. I could see a man standing by the wall near the door just for a moment and he was gone. I then heard a female speak and said do not be scared we wont hurt you. I didn't feel scared which I think to a child hearing that would have scared many. It's kinda hard to explain what I did feel and some would say that I don't have to explain it was it was personal to myself.

I've often been asked when was i aware of the spirit world and my answers have always been the same, my awareness extends back to early childhood memories.

The earliest of those being when I was no more than 1 years old. I remember standing in my then cot in the middle of the afternoon when my dad comes into the room to which then I see another man behind him. When my dad then picked me up the man at the door started to smile. I don't have much of a memory on what he looked like but I have always felt that I knew him in one way or another.

When my dad turned around the man that I had saw had gone which could only have been within a matter of seconds which takes longer than that to have walked from the door top the top of the stairs and down them. I have shared this memory with my dad and he recalls sensing something at that time but having blocked a lot he couldn't tell what it was. To this very day I can't help but feel that the man standing by the door was my great grand dad on my fathers side.

The next vivid memory I have is when I was around the age of 3. I remember being out in the back garden of our then home with my Brother who is 2 and a half years older, I don't recall what we were doing but I do remember turning round and being drawn to the upstairs back bedroom window. Which incidentally was the room in which my brother and I shared

On looking up at the window I noticed a lady looking back at me, a lady that I had never seen before nor seen since that day. I do remember partials of her, she was in her 30's very slender features on her face. I would have to say light bay brown shortish hair, she was wearing a red jumper from what i could see. I recall her smiling and I wondered who she was. My mum then appeared at the back door which runs of the kitchen so I had asked her who she was. My mum asked what lady so i said the one standing at the window of our room, mum's reply was that there was no-one else in the house with her. I thought nothing more of it.

Another memory isn't with a spirit of a person but that of an animal, well two really. From this memory I recall seeing a white wolf curled up in the corner watching peacefully what was going on, not stirring but could see he was ever alert as his ears would twitch and it's nose would move like that of your pet dog, upon his back was a brown bird, at the age of three i couldn't tell you what type of bird but her feathers looked very soft and smooth. The wolf didn't mind her being there. I've since come to learn that the wolf and the bird which I now know to be a red tailed hawk are in fact two of my totem animals. These two in particular are still with me now and appear to be life long totems.

The next memory I have I can't recall how old I was but can't have been older than 5. It was night time my brother and I were in bed when I awoke. I could see a man standing by the wall near the door just for a moment and he was gone. I then heard a female speak and said do not be scared we wont hurt you. I didn't feel scared which I think to a child hearing that would have scared many. It's kinda hard to explain what I did feel and some would say that I don't have to explain it was it was personal to myself
Carrying on now from my last memory I seem to have a gap between the age of 7 and 10, which perhaps i can place down to moving to a new place and then adjusting to that around me from such a move. So between 7 and 10 I don't recall any spirit interactions.

Although when I turned 10 there was several events or such that stick with me. There was one account where I was in the sitting room of the flat watching the telly to hear a thud in the same room. There was no-one else in that room with me, my mum was in the kitchen making dinner, my brothers were in the back bedroom or outside at the time and my dad was working.

I turned to look for what may have caused that noise to see a girl over by the book case pulling a book out, she had already dropped one on the floor. She turned to look at me when i looked at her and smiled and let the book fall. She wasn't the only one in spirit in that room there was a man and a lady with her, I couldn't make them out so much as they were faint, but obviously wanted to make there presence felt. At that point I think I froze to the seat I was sitting on and they faded from site.

Another memory was to the sounds of two boy's in spirit laughing and running around. I was laying in bed and was watching this tennis ball going back and forth across the ceiling while these boys were laughing, Some would say it was just my imagination but I felt it to be spirit.

I would often sit in my parents room watching the TV there while they were watching something else in the sitting room where one night all I could smell was burning wood, much to that like the smell you get from house fires. All the window's were closed in our home and there was no reason for it to be there. I have not been the only person to smell this in this room.

Another night in that same room I remember I was watching coronation street and the outline of a woman's head appeared before the telly and I then heard the words = Get out it's not safe.. I will honestly say that scared me, I left the room but I did come back later, the smell had gone and her presence was gone also.

For a long period of time this room would smell of that smokey wood from a fire, and feel heavy, sometimes disorientation heavy. emotionally draining to say the least.

I've also come to see my mum's sister in spirit. Her name's Joanie, she passed when she was 4 years old when my mum and her family where in Germany. My grandpa at the time was in the army and did a lot of traveling. I knew nothing of my aunt till after that night I saw her.

I was in my room, again watching the telly when she appeared to me, blonde kiss-curly hair just longer than shoulder length, wearing what looked to be a white floral dress with lace around the neck, long knee length socks and black buckle shoes. So vivid was this spirit I had no doubts that it was in any way not my imagination. I remember her Saying hello to me. Again I froze but it was like a conversation in my mind to which now I don't recall what was said.

It was the next day once I had returned from school that I had told my mum what I had seen the night before. I described her as I did here and she had told me that What i described matched her memory of what her little sister had looked like before she passed. Her death was an accident she took an over dose of paracetamols thinking they were sweet's.

When I started to open up more to be able to communicate with spirit, I became more aware as you do, was able to connect to that lady in the back room, she was emotionally attached through her passing and with help we were able then to guide her to the light, and since then that back room as been so much lighter, more comfortable.

There was one occasion I was connecting to spirit when a man came forward to talk but something wasn't overly right, I could feel that and knew it but couldn't place why. Then the next think I knew this man in spirit was like lunging towards me but I could feel I was in no danger. My guides had stepped in as I could see two hands come in front of me and acted like a barrier. They stopped that man coming any closer and sent him on his way. ...That is partly the reason we have our guides with us.

I've had objects move from one place to another in front of me, I'm guessing it was done to get my attention in which it certainly did.
I have this 6inch figurine of Aragorn from Lord of the Rings bought a few years ago now whilst on holiday in Blackpool with family.

One night it was sitting on my computer table next to my bedroom cupboard, when it started to violently shake, it shook that much that it was banging against the cupboard, but no-one else saw this happen or heard it. Which i found to be strange as I know it did happen and wont ever doubt it.

I've had the TV turn on a 6 o'clock in the morning for the BBC 1 world new's broadcast. It was reporting on the event's in the then war in Afghanistan. As soon as that report was done the TV went off again. I know that it was my uncle in spirit who had done this as he would always listen to the new reports on the army as the connection runs in the blood of the family. My uncle passed away while I was 7 years old, but feel blessed that I can still communicate with him and know that he is always around moving things about keeping us on our toe's

I've since had music come on a CD player and it would change track to follow the conversation I was having with friends in Mediumystics chat rooms. I remember talking about the rain that was falling and Rhianna's song - Umbrella that came on, there was another part of the conversation that changed to talk of something that was going on with dad's car and track changed to shut up and drive. Which looking back although strange as it was, it was funny and nice to know they were around whom ever they actually were.

I've had many things go on even to now where the most recent one was an issue with my pc speakers that were plugged into the laptop and there was no music playing, In fact there was no signal showing on the base unit for these speakers, and yet music started to come from them. I called my brother to check if it was just me or that in fact the speakers were playing music and they were so i grabbed for my phone and recorded what was being played. The music that came across was a mix of several things and as of yet I've still to find any connection to it. I've been left wondering if in fact it was my guides making sure that I was listening to them

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